I want to announce that since today I'm banning my journal, because I'm going to a military training, and I can no longer updating. I feel depressed for leaving my journal, and all I can do is do my best at the training. So... this is the last update, right? I don't want anything bad happen. Anyway I love my journal always, also the friends and communities, I won't forget when I join military (hope I'm qualified to be a komando) because I love them too much. AAARGH!!! I will have give up anything and everything to protect my country when that day came, haha.

OMGOMGOMG I'm seeing this hanchul community and I feel like I have to post something or else I will die *not serious*. OMG Have to read!!!! random but, yah, at least I'm posting, right?

waaaa from today my sister is gonna stay at my house ><, so maybe for this 4 days I can't open lj~ ugh. Why? of course I can't, my sister will laugh at me if she sees my journal account, and went 'ahahaha YOU SOUND LIKE A GIRL!!!'. My sister is very manly, and have multiply personality. That means my friends cannot go to my house O_O. OH NOOOOOOOOOESSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!! But I want to play with my friends TT_TT. this kind of conversation will definitely go:

sister: OMG YOU'RE SO CHILDISH!
me: yeah, I know *yawn* this is my journal, it's up to me *glares*
sister: you talk like a girl!
me: you know that *roll eyes*
sister: and you admit that you're gay!
me: WTF I'M NOT GAY!
sister: since?
me:... and since when you're not lesbian?
sister: I'M NOT A LESBIAN!!
me: see?
sister: do people believe that you're male species?
me: that's the truth, sis.
sister: ow really?
me: *glares* *kill*
sister: *no effect* and... OH LOOK AT THOSE GRAMMAR ERRORS SCATTERING EVERYWHERE!!!
me: no need to shout.
sister: WHY DON'T YOU USE MOTHER LANGUAGE?!! IT'LL BE LESS EMBARRASSING
me: IT'S MY JOURNAL. IT'S UP TO ME. END OF THE STORY.
sister: *ignore* *start changing the theme* go to this site, don't use this kind of layout. oh the mood *hair flips* so terrible. change the font. *points at something* OMG that's so lame. blah blah blah...

and endless ranting. IT HAPPENED TO MY BLOG, EVERYWHERE! THAT CONTROL FREAK!! MY STYLE OF CLOTHES TOO!! FUCK SHE ALWAYS FORCES ME TO WEAR GIRLS CLOTHES! WHAT THE HELL?!! okay, dae, control your breath. inhale *fuuuuh* exhale *hyuuh*.

AND YOU KNOW? TOMORROW SHE GAVE MY DO YOU HEAR THAT?!! MY!!!! GACKT POSTER THAT I BOUGHT WITH MY MONEY!!! TO HER FRIEND!!! AND SHE SAID SHE DIDN'T KNOW THAT IT'S MINE!!! I MEAN, WHO ELSE'S? IN THE WHOLE FAMILY, THE ONLY ONE THAT LIKE GACKT IS JUST ME!!!! GAN DAEHYUN!! FOR GOD SAKE!!! AND WHEN I TOLD HER TO BRING IT BACK, ASK HER FRIEND, SHE JUST SHRUGGED!! AND WHEN I TOLD HER TO BUY THAT POSTER AGAIN FOR ME, BUT SHE STARTED TO NAG ME!!! AND NOW I CAN'T PRACTICE MARTIAL ARTS IN RANDOM PLACES, (WHICH IS JUST BECAUSE I CAN) BECAUSE SHE IS HERE!! SHIT!!!

I want my friends. *pout* fuck it. but not through internet. want them here. by my side. uggh~

ahahahah I skipped updates again >< I feel sorry to my journal (no one watch it btw).

I've watched antique bakery and 46 billion years of love. And I got freaked out when there is the horror part in both movie, man, that's creepy.I end up clinging on my friend's shirt all the time, sorry ><. And those scenes don't make any sense to me, especially in 46 billion years of love.

Antique Bakery: I thought when my friend told my it's a yaoi korean drama, it's just a shonen-ai and fanservices, but.... when I watched it, I was like *WOAH!* those gay scene ( i admit, very hot *get slapped* ) it's not that I don't like it, instead, I like very much ( I keep replaying it in my mind, LOL ), I was just shocked. haha. and I LOL veryveryveryvery hard when the dialog 'I'm a gay demonic charm'. and the part where the 'gay demonic charm' have to part with the french guy (french right? don't tell me that's wrong), I cried, I mean, like crazy. I don't care what my friends said about me being gay, but the movie is sooo touching and cute XD

46 Billion Years of Love: at first, I didn't understand ANYTHING. but in the middle of the movie I was just 'oooh' and at the end I cried. this time is so much more dramatic than antique bakery. It's just, sad... really.

There's this Japanese movie 'Boys Love' that I really want to watch, but I can't find it on the internet, and I wonder is the dvd being sell here? It seems sad, but touching, from the trailer and reviews. I don't know why but since boys over flowers / kkotboda namja, I am addicted to gay movies?

i just buy SHOXX magazine vol.194 ... hahahaha it's so expensive >.> since it's crisis, I cannot risk too much. the temptation is sooo big, God >.<

the fullmetal alchemist is on, now. aaah... it's sad, but it doesn't have that much effect on me. the anime version is better, i think what is on the manga, stays in manga, because it feels weird, watching all over again with different storyline, etc. but I will still watch it, hagane no renkinjutsushi is like, half of my life concept. hahaha

i wonder why it doesn't work? nana_mitsuki

 HAHAHA FINALLY, UPDATE!!! AAAAH I forgot to post, again, feels like century >.< and  never comment anymore. I'll start doing it NOW. but, I can't (in my friend's laptop with her mom in the house). so I have to wait. hope I don't forget again.

BTW, I was going to select pixie themes or whatever it is. but...

Me: "It's so cute right???"

Friend1: "You don't have to show more gayness in your journal, you now?"

Friend2: "I pity your friends there"

Me: "shut up." *pout* "hate you guys"

sooo, I have this journal theme. aah

Title: (not decided yet)
Author: me...
Too tired to write more but here is it
( here )

Title: Angel
Author: me...
Genre: Angst?
Rating: do I need one? PG.
Note: sorry for the grammatical errors, though maybe no one will ever read this but it's okay.
( why? )

Title: DREAMS
Author: me...
Genre: dark
Rating: PG
Warning: dark things you may not understand. this is the effect of holding a notebook and pencil while listening d.m.c. band version alone in the room after a nightmare.
( a female scream )

the rash got better until tonight. it's red as ever, and plop! out of my skin like psycho. I'm going crazy. hate rashland so much. wanna go home.

Hi. Day four. Rash still here. pain pain pain *scratch* pain pain. And oh, last night was not to hot we end up exhausted. Oh, our lube is running out so i have to go to convinient store now. Bye! (don't mind this is just mindless babbling, and i don't know if they sell lube in convinient store?'

And here I am. The pervert bitch who just caught doing strange thing by his mom. Again. Well you know, drawing porn, make someone pregnant. Of course NO! I was caught for looking some d'espa and larc images again, and my mom said something like 'your type of guy is horrible, they look like (mention an awful both in look and music domestic band).' hey! It hurts! Isn't a normal mom would say thing such 'are you gay?' well it's better than compairing d'espa and LARC!! For damn god sake! It's LARC we're talking about! Not a cheap cheesy with corny words as lyrics! I just can't stand it! Graaaah!

But it's not all. First my rash is still here. Come on say hello to my rash! Hey, don't you think I should give him a name? Rash-kun? No, too obvius. Nana-rash-mitsuki? Too long. Reddy reddy-tan? Ouu yeah sooo HOT and SMEXY. No thanks.

So my reddy reddy-tan is so annoying now. He try to get my attention and mention something about crotch and vibrator and something sounds like don't be so rough tonight or use lube. I don't which one though.i don't really understand either (LIAR!!!). Heh, he is such a slut tonight, maybe he is jealous i'm so buzy flirting with my lj, heheh, so he is so hot and red right now. For some reason, it turn me on AND off. Well, the rash is now up to my hip and it gives me reason to touch my self! Hehe how pervert i am!

You know what? I'm so RANDOM!! Actually i feel kinda depressed now so i need someone to talk now. Here. And then. And of course my beloved journal is at the top of my friend's list (not in lj) who I want to talk to. Btw i watched d'espa videos this morning in youtube. The new year greeting, if I'm not wrong. Zero is so exposed! I almost drool when I saw his outfit, he is sooo cute with hizumi and karyu tease him (groping, actually)

Today. I got rash. Again. On my legs AND arms. I wonder why? Is it a curse? Whatever it is, it's sooo purely annoying. It hurts sometime, make me wanna scratch a lot, and have an obvius red. Like i'm showing it to everyone 'hey look I got a rash over here! Isn't it HOT?!' for god sake no. And now i'm writing this while scratching! God please help me... I beg for your mercy...

yesterday I bought a manga guide book for anatomy!! finally I bought it, I've been thinking about it lately. It's good, really help me a lot. and I surprised how much I can learn in a day! I didn't draw girls. I'm suck at that and I don't want it either. hate girls, not all. but sometimes girls are suck, you know?

Oh right!! yesterday I bought a shonen-ai manga that my best friend mention! love it! the title is ultra panic. I just have number 3 and 4, I search for the mangascan but I just can't find it everywhere!! I wonder why...

today I got a lot of l'arc indies picture and I was just like "squeeee!!!" and bounce like a maniac rabbit or something like that. creepy though.

and I read hyde's diary and... I understand sakuhai now. well, they were always together and hyde is always talk about sakura. it makes me wonder if the sakuhai fics I read earlier is true (NANI?!!). and they still really close to each other just now! well, I support haitsu still.

this is the first time I'm posting an entry to the community, I feel like a newbie here.. hehe
well, I want to ask: is that real, Laruku is not gonna make album or tour or single until 2011? because if it's true, everyone will be sad. and I would feel very lonely